Why do crossdressers and sissy gurls dream of stepping out into the spotlight?

I have spoken to 100's of gurls and perhaps exchanged emails with 100's more. It seems the one thing that drives gurls more than sex, more than being taken by an alpha male cock is stepping outside en-femm. 

In this post we will discuss this idea and try to understand what motivates so many gurls and yet is out of reach for almost all of them. Some gurls dream of the intimacy of female friends, a summers picnic with champagne and gossip.

Or the morning rush to work dealing with hot packed subway trains and the embaresment of outfit fails.

Or working out in the gym, having all the guys stare at your body

Or being on a date and being told to give him your panties as a prize.

In the end all these pale away to simply stepping outside and strutting your femm gurly self, the bounce of your breast forms, the sway of your hips the click clack of heels on the paving stone 

It truly is intoxicating for almost every single gurl. Why? Because for that moment you have managed to conquer your fear and have truly become your femm self, where you feel and know you are truly a girl. 

Moreover, the convincing gurls develop a sense of arousal at the concept of playing the role and the fear of being 'caught' the humiliation is by the same process of association arousing. So gurls that can step outside are blessed with two forms of arousal, one based in pleasure and one based in fear. 

Initially, the idea is soooo frightening, but eventually that fear of humiliation evolves into a sense of intense arousal by that same process of constant association. Over time, gurls end up being intensely aroused by having others see us dressed in women’s clothes in public. This is also an overlap of sissy gurls desires to be caught, to be punished.

Most gurls will not go out en-femm in public but those that do despite the fear. Will discover an intense rush, an almost addictive euphoria. Initially all gurls seek to “pass”. Few do. Some gurls are excited by this and actually become aroused by the shame of the experience - the smirks, the stares, the whispers, the occasional derision. The humiliation elevates the level we derive from being exposed, in public, in our girlie clothes. 

 In the end all sissy gurls, all gurls are seeking some form of acceptance, as Sarah (a Crossdresser from the US I know well) put it, 

"It is better to be loved, but I will take hate over hidding away"

I would be most interested in feedback gurls.